Wednesday, September 02, 2009

Wishing to Begin

Jamie Ridler throws a Wishcasting Wednesday every week on her creativity blog. This Wednesday her question for all of us is: What do you wish to begin?

Beginnings are such precipitous moments. They are changes of direction carrying all those unexpected thrills and risks. Too often, I zone out right at the beginning of things seeking somehow to escape responsibility for what may happen by pretending I'm "letting the universe decide my course." But abnegating my responsibility for my own life drains me of creativity - you need to own your choices to create - so first and foremost I wish to begin paying attention to beginnings!

I wish to begin a regular practice of creating art. In my family, my sister was always the artist and I was the intellectual. Well, I can be intellectual and create art so there! I can even do it at the same time if I wanna. Okay, that was so not an intellectual way to say that. See, I’m already beginning!!! (And just for the record, my sister can be a fabulous artist and an intellectual as well! Screw you, family boxes!)

And finally – for now – I wish to begin a journey of transforming the loneliness in my life into love and connection. I save the best for last. I grew up terribly lonely and alone. I used to be angry about this feeling that life and family had let me down. It’s good to be angry for a while about childhood things that scarred, but eventually we gotta move on. So I’ve learned some stuff about loneliness and I can use that knowledge to recognize loneliness in others. And because I have stood up for myself, because I’ve been angry at the way a little girl was left on her own too much with no mentoring or encouragement, I am moved to do what I can to alleviate that need in others.

So, what do you wish to begin?

16 comments:

Giulietta said...

Hi Yvonne,

Thanks for your nice comment! Our life purpose is usually to help others overcome what we've overcome. I see lots of possibilities with the transformation you are undertaking. Sounds really exciting and there is a great need. I wish you the best with this journey!

Giulietta

Jamie Ridler said...

As Yvonne wishes for herself, so I wish for her also.

What powerful beginnings, like opening little doors in your soul. I'm so glad you're here!

I totally recognize the family boxes. We had that too. It's great to bust out and be whatever shape you truly are!

Holly said...

Dear One:
How wonderful it is when pain transmutes to compassion and the ability to reach out to others.

You are blessed and beginning to bless others. With this wish, a door to possibility flies open.

As Yvonne wishes for herself, so I lovingly and with intention wish for her also.

May the rest of your days, give you the open space to feel blessedly alone, but never again lonely.

Stefanie said...

As Yvonne wishes for herself, so I sincerely wish for her also.

Wishing you peace, happiness, companionship, and creativity.

May you be bold in your journey.

Christine Claire Reed said...

As Yvonne wishes for herself, so I wish for her also.

I think one of the most amazing things about the human spirit is that you can totally own the anger that you have every right to AND SIMULTANEOUSLY be creating joy and love and bliss in the here and now.

Tim King said...

Hi, Yvonne. I love how you've decided to jump off of the anger, which you rightly feel, and make something positive of it.

As Yvonne wishes for herself, so I wish for her also.

-TimK

Anna said...

As Yvonne wishes for herself, so I wish for her also! :-)

Girlie-Queue said...

:) As Yvonne wishes for herself, so too do I lovingly wish for Yvonne and all of her beginnings. MUAH
~Shamsi

Ellecubed said...

As Yvonne wishes for herself, so I wish for her also.

Sarah said...

As Yvonne wishes for herself, so I wish for her also.

Yes step out of that box!!!! Wonderful wish hon!!! Welcome!
Namaste, Sarah

Deldino said...

AS Yvonne wishes for herself, so I wish for her also.
Way to step out of the box with this wish. May it be so!

differenceayearmakes said...

As Yvonne wishes for herself, so I wish for her also.

Ann said...

As Yvonne wishes for herself, so I wish for her also.

Janet said...

made me laugh and smile. Yvonne, that which you wish for, i wish for you also.

The Fragrant Muse said...

Powerful Wish!

As Yvonne wishes for herself, so I wish for her also.

Evn said...

As Yvonne wishes for herself, so I wish for her also.

Oooh, I like that.